I usually frame my entries in some way, this one I've decided not too. As the title implies it's something written in response to one persons question and it applies as a rule. This is as close to "my take" or version or whatever of jealousy/possessiveness on an emotional level. That's the frame you get, I trust it's sufficient...
... I don't mind causal, I'm for it honestly, the calm warm pleasant assured style of casual. The casual kiss of a loved one to another when walking passed about the day. That I love and find would bear smiles.
this other...
this other,
I don't wish to name it
as I feel it deserves no power and place
flowers before swine if we were to use a variant of an old phrase
like the grimy candy sticked hands of a spoiled child grasping a silk painting
besmirch is a good word for it, besmirch suits
as it evokes a tongue clinching lip curling impulse to despise those who do it
I've worried lest I let it become an excuse to be possessive, to allow that a house within my soul would lessen me so I place will before it and bar the way
you decide is the key, the whole world of difference. That you decide, and why
what spirt moves you holds you when you do
in a world without disease I would hesitate not at all not for a thought of a heart beat if you'd just fucked sixteen guys in quick succession it wouldn't matter, you would not diminish nor be sullied by that
on the other side of the abyss however there live things I would obliterate were I able
simple looks from “him” timber has left me swimming in images of smashing his face, whoever “he” is at the moment
something about smashing in the face, that's what's called for
women, with their envious jealous eyes, those I want to eviscerate
to flay
that's what's suited there
mayhap it's to turn in kind what they put upon you with their mouthing-minds
I grin when people lust after you, more so when they are stricken fallen for you, there are all kinds of smiles that get to live in case you come to be showing me such things... even all unknowing as when we walk together, watching the eyes of the passing motorists, or the men who stop me on the street to congratulate me. By those I am pleased
it's when people lust then point it at you, that bothers me when it's not about you but about them that bothers me that is what it should not be
so long as it's about you not someone else, or just them which is to say no one at all. So long as that's the truth it disturbs me nothing, however the other.... well what is that but despicable for them to do and disgusting for me to behold
save of course the most potent point, depressing for you to endure ... whatever sensations and situations happen to be it's rapping paper
you follow don't you?
Sunday, June 26, 2005
Tuesday, June 21, 2005
Current events interview
Interviewer: so this is the first public statement you’ve made since the big shift.
Sol: yeah that’s right I just had to take some time to settle in and chew things over first.
Interviewer: so how’s all of that coming for you?
Sol: branching out as with most things, but basically I realized that I know more about what I’m doing than I usually think or credit myself with. Which is at once uplifting because of it’s sense of greater empowerment and ironic because it’s one of my pet peeves with other people and the behaviors that I witness.
Interviewer: How about new realizations in the face of change, any pearls you’d like to share from the big shift?
Sol: Yes, for example I discovered that I miss people fiercely it just doesn’t make me sad. Longing most defiantly but I discovered that for me this longing is a source of strength. I have said for many years that I simply don’t miss people, my mistake was because I wasn’t broken up by the experience as with most who I’ve witnessed. So my mistake came there.
Interviewer: there have been a lot of things said about you and relationships lately, care to address any of that?
Sol: Really I’m just adhering to the same rules I always have. Treat people like they have the integrity and power to say what they mean, mean what they say, and admit when they’re mistaken. Also as always I’m more intrinsically able to give a woman slack about transgressions made in this regard than I am a man, there are any number of labels that might suit that paradigm but in any event it’s been with me since I was very young. Just the same as my willingness to overlook a slight to me a thousand times more readily than one to a friend. If you’re looking for changes the best I can think to give you is a reaffirmation. I experienced that love and trust can exist independent of one and other which shored up my commitment to the codes of conduct which I adhere to. The principle of is this; if someone claims something they are striving to become it and from that moment they are what they have claimed. Treat them as is their due in light of what they have become. Give them no more or less respect, confidence, or aid that what their chosen status deserves. That way no matter what happens they lived their lives in truth. After all one heartbeat of truth is worth any thousand year lie.
Interviewer: what about love, How does that factor into all of this?
Sol: Love is about joy, truthfully. Perhaps you’d say it like this; love is joy in truth and thus true joy. Loving someone you do your best to guide them to truth and joy. You allow for it, you make way for it, you look for it, and if this happens to be then you sacrifice for it as well.
Love is unconditionally given. There is one primordial condition however, simply that you do not kill joy for the sake of joy. You don’t give up your own love on behalf of love. If you do the gift given turns sour and cold. Which as a one time chief I can tell you is a dish that few find palatable. Loving is finding ways to live together with someone who is not yourself, no matter how often you see them or how much you talk it’s about accepting them into your life as surely as you yourself are placed therein.
Interviewer: You speak with a great degree of certainty about love, would you then say you can define it’s presence? Or that you always know when it’s there?
Sol: no I would not. I do have a good guide however. When someone loves you. And that love is more than just affection or enjoying your company, or wanting you around for some more specifically selfish reason. Then they want you to be healthy and strong. They want you to have empowerment and joy. Without regard for what repercussions will or will not be visited upon themselves. Likewise someone who will participate in your self destruction or stagnation, while they may be more palatable to be around, no matter how much affection they hold for you or how intense it is they do not truly love you. There’s much in this life that evokes much passion, even pleasure or comfort, that is nothing of love.
Interviewer: You have been known to quote that being a poet is a condition not a profession, so I’m wondering what is the condition of your poetry?
Sol: Clever. My poetry has taken a signficint step backwards chronological in some ways. Which is a huge progression to my voice as a writer and artist. It’s a sticky task to find your voice in this world and communicate what you witness. It’s insurmountable if you lose who you are to the somewhat petty convincers of preconceived conventions.
Interviewer: So you’re against learning of any standardized forms of art or writing?
Sol: Not at all, I’m very much for the learning for all of them. They make great stained glass for the creation of true art. But you wouldn’t put up pains of solid colored glass in a Cathedral and call it inspirational, the same here applies. Someone who was briefly a teacher of mine said that you have to know the rules to before you brake them. He meant that you earn the right that way, because you earn the grasp of what’s happening. Just remember as you’re learning from all those that you see, innovations, inspirations, and greatness never came from puerile mimicry.
Interviewer: what troubles you most?
Sol: that I still haven’t shaken my old habits.
Interviewer: care to elaborate?
Sol: I have a number of mistakes that I’ve habitually made and at this point I not only know it but how to solve it, I am troubled by the remainder that’s un-dealt with.
Interviewer: what makes you smile?
Sol: these days or always?
Interviewer: these days.
Sol: renewed faith. My own.
Interviewer: what brought that about?
Sol: a Cross is a wonderful symbol and inspiration when you chose the right one.
Interviewer: Care to be a bit more cryptic?
Sol: no thanks, I think that says it nicely.
Interviewer: You moved largely based on choices of education and profession, what are your present goals within those fields?
Sol: Again the same as they always have been except that I’m dispelling the impulse to settle. I’m learning Forensic Psychology, or Psych Profiling for short. I’m looking for a school to learn martial arts in and will attain mastery before all’s said and done. And I’m throwing myself headlong into art again because I’m going to be successful in that field.
Interviewer: Tall order what have you done towards it recently?
Sol: Made contact with a few old friends to establish closer ties to the martial arts community as well as compiling a list of the schools/styles that I’m interested in studying. I’m also watching more, training more. The same is true of Psych Profiling I don’t pass up opportunities to exercise the skills of the trade. I’m also getting set to go to school within the field. The arts I’ve worked on my voice and my bass somewhat consistently and I’ve written three pieces today alone.
Interviewer: Is that all?
Sol: actually no, I’m spending the most of my time and energy becoming a firebrand. We need more of them. So I’m up for it.
Interviewer: Well that about does it for the time we have on this first interview anything you’d like to say to our readers before we close this up?
Sol: remember neither time nor distance effects truth or love, it just allows them to be more readily ignored. Be careful of it.
Interviewer: Indeed... well that’s it we’ll have another interview here with Sol later on but this will hopefully tide you over for a while.
Sol: yeah that’s right I just had to take some time to settle in and chew things over first.
Interviewer: so how’s all of that coming for you?
Sol: branching out as with most things, but basically I realized that I know more about what I’m doing than I usually think or credit myself with. Which is at once uplifting because of it’s sense of greater empowerment and ironic because it’s one of my pet peeves with other people and the behaviors that I witness.
Interviewer: How about new realizations in the face of change, any pearls you’d like to share from the big shift?
Sol: Yes, for example I discovered that I miss people fiercely it just doesn’t make me sad. Longing most defiantly but I discovered that for me this longing is a source of strength. I have said for many years that I simply don’t miss people, my mistake was because I wasn’t broken up by the experience as with most who I’ve witnessed. So my mistake came there.
Interviewer: there have been a lot of things said about you and relationships lately, care to address any of that?
Sol: Really I’m just adhering to the same rules I always have. Treat people like they have the integrity and power to say what they mean, mean what they say, and admit when they’re mistaken. Also as always I’m more intrinsically able to give a woman slack about transgressions made in this regard than I am a man, there are any number of labels that might suit that paradigm but in any event it’s been with me since I was very young. Just the same as my willingness to overlook a slight to me a thousand times more readily than one to a friend. If you’re looking for changes the best I can think to give you is a reaffirmation. I experienced that love and trust can exist independent of one and other which shored up my commitment to the codes of conduct which I adhere to. The principle of is this; if someone claims something they are striving to become it and from that moment they are what they have claimed. Treat them as is their due in light of what they have become. Give them no more or less respect, confidence, or aid that what their chosen status deserves. That way no matter what happens they lived their lives in truth. After all one heartbeat of truth is worth any thousand year lie.
Interviewer: what about love, How does that factor into all of this?
Sol: Love is about joy, truthfully. Perhaps you’d say it like this; love is joy in truth and thus true joy. Loving someone you do your best to guide them to truth and joy. You allow for it, you make way for it, you look for it, and if this happens to be then you sacrifice for it as well.
Love is unconditionally given. There is one primordial condition however, simply that you do not kill joy for the sake of joy. You don’t give up your own love on behalf of love. If you do the gift given turns sour and cold. Which as a one time chief I can tell you is a dish that few find palatable. Loving is finding ways to live together with someone who is not yourself, no matter how often you see them or how much you talk it’s about accepting them into your life as surely as you yourself are placed therein.
Interviewer: You speak with a great degree of certainty about love, would you then say you can define it’s presence? Or that you always know when it’s there?
Sol: no I would not. I do have a good guide however. When someone loves you. And that love is more than just affection or enjoying your company, or wanting you around for some more specifically selfish reason. Then they want you to be healthy and strong. They want you to have empowerment and joy. Without regard for what repercussions will or will not be visited upon themselves. Likewise someone who will participate in your self destruction or stagnation, while they may be more palatable to be around, no matter how much affection they hold for you or how intense it is they do not truly love you. There’s much in this life that evokes much passion, even pleasure or comfort, that is nothing of love.
Interviewer: You have been known to quote that being a poet is a condition not a profession, so I’m wondering what is the condition of your poetry?
Sol: Clever. My poetry has taken a signficint step backwards chronological in some ways. Which is a huge progression to my voice as a writer and artist. It’s a sticky task to find your voice in this world and communicate what you witness. It’s insurmountable if you lose who you are to the somewhat petty convincers of preconceived conventions.
Interviewer: So you’re against learning of any standardized forms of art or writing?
Sol: Not at all, I’m very much for the learning for all of them. They make great stained glass for the creation of true art. But you wouldn’t put up pains of solid colored glass in a Cathedral and call it inspirational, the same here applies. Someone who was briefly a teacher of mine said that you have to know the rules to before you brake them. He meant that you earn the right that way, because you earn the grasp of what’s happening. Just remember as you’re learning from all those that you see, innovations, inspirations, and greatness never came from puerile mimicry.
Interviewer: what troubles you most?
Sol: that I still haven’t shaken my old habits.
Interviewer: care to elaborate?
Sol: I have a number of mistakes that I’ve habitually made and at this point I not only know it but how to solve it, I am troubled by the remainder that’s un-dealt with.
Interviewer: what makes you smile?
Sol: these days or always?
Interviewer: these days.
Sol: renewed faith. My own.
Interviewer: what brought that about?
Sol: a Cross is a wonderful symbol and inspiration when you chose the right one.
Interviewer: Care to be a bit more cryptic?
Sol: no thanks, I think that says it nicely.
Interviewer: You moved largely based on choices of education and profession, what are your present goals within those fields?
Sol: Again the same as they always have been except that I’m dispelling the impulse to settle. I’m learning Forensic Psychology, or Psych Profiling for short. I’m looking for a school to learn martial arts in and will attain mastery before all’s said and done. And I’m throwing myself headlong into art again because I’m going to be successful in that field.
Interviewer: Tall order what have you done towards it recently?
Sol: Made contact with a few old friends to establish closer ties to the martial arts community as well as compiling a list of the schools/styles that I’m interested in studying. I’m also watching more, training more. The same is true of Psych Profiling I don’t pass up opportunities to exercise the skills of the trade. I’m also getting set to go to school within the field. The arts I’ve worked on my voice and my bass somewhat consistently and I’ve written three pieces today alone.
Interviewer: Is that all?
Sol: actually no, I’m spending the most of my time and energy becoming a firebrand. We need more of them. So I’m up for it.
Interviewer: Well that about does it for the time we have on this first interview anything you’d like to say to our readers before we close this up?
Sol: remember neither time nor distance effects truth or love, it just allows them to be more readily ignored. Be careful of it.
Interviewer: Indeed... well that’s it we’ll have another interview here with Sol later on but this will hopefully tide you over for a while.
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